Monday, June 4, 2012

self love

It's been months and months since I've blogged, and I'm excited to get back to it.  This post is about a topic very near and dear to my heart- self love.  Sometimes we forget to treat ourselves well, and to know that we are enough.  Right now, as we are.  I am one of those people that has the tendency to get too attached to a hope, goal or dream, and then think, "I will be somebody when...".  I need to learn to live in the now, and appreciate what I have and who I am at this very moment.  If I fill my head with negative thoughts today, then what does that promise for the future?  It's sad to realize that I have learned to become comfortable in a negative personal image because of difficult situations I've had to deal with in the past.  I don't like feeling defeated.  It is tiring and heavy, but it is easy because I don't have to do anything.  How can I change my self image?  The obvious answer would be to simply love myself, but if I haven't loved myself for a very long long time, then how??  Habits.  Leaving the housework, abusing food, and over sleeping have never. ever. made me feel good.  Replacing bad habits with good ones will help me feel better about myself for sure.  Waking up early, going on walks, reading, organizing, eating healthy, journaling, cleaning, unplugged family time, dressing up, drinking water, date nights, exploring, meditating, painting.....these are the types of (real, tangible) things I can do to naturally feel positive.  I have a LOT to be grateful for, and I really do love love love my life.  It's hard to explain how I can be happy with my life and proud of my morals and general ethic, yet disappointed because I know I can do better.  My kids, my boyfriend, my pets, my job, my house, my car, my hobbies and all of that are all golden.  It's me.  I'm a kind, generous, loving, thoughtful, artistic, intelligent, and beautiful person.  Most of the time I believe that.  Actions speak louder than words.

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